1st of August 2024
I was gonna write this one yesterday on the 31st of July but I guess time's up? Anyway, today was a fairly uneventful day. Didn't speak to a lot of people, and I didn't work much on Depth Spelunking today, but I did work on my website which I didn't work on for months. Suddenly the whole thing is operational and has multiple pages like my portfolio, dev logs, and now this: a look into my brain. Idk why I suddenly got so motivated to do this shit but here we are lole
Web dev is a lot easier than I thought it'd be. It's surprisingly fun too. Seeing it all come together eventually makes it pretty great in my opinion. It's satisfying. I mean, any developer of any kind knows what I mean. Artists too, or writers, idk, this can apply to basically anything. Maybe everything
Should I put a Quote or Message of the day? Maybe, could be fun or something. I mean, I dunno if many people will read this considering they're more than likely here for the Depth Spelunking stuff. It's understandable, people like the game and they want to see it progress. I wish I could express how much that means to me in words that make sense. I mean, I never expected to get this far with Depth Spelunking. It exploded during the second test to such a level I was not expecting. It honestly shocked me and I feel like I don't deserve a lot of the success I got, but I'm so damn grateful for it. It allowed me to devex for the second ever time, which is a great feeling. Not because of the money itself, moreso because it's just a reward in general, a reminder that my efforts aren't being wasted or invalidated.
I'm happy. If not then at least content.
Does that sound corny or cheesy? Maybe it does. But I'm keeping it here, I'll probably keep most of my thoughts here, but not the spooky fucked up ones or whatever, not sure what to call them without sounding like an edgy teen when I'm literally 19 years old. I'm an adult.
Maybe I should draw more. The most recent thing I drew was, like, practice. I should make a full piece with lighting and rendering or whatever but I fucking suck at lighting and I've been so burnt out or unmotivated on art for so long that I've gotten rusty at my fundamentals. I was never that great at lighting anyway so I just have to keep practicing. I feel like I focused on anatomy too much instead of studying all of the fundamentals at an equal level. That would explain how I can draw hands so well when everything else looks like total ass. I should really start practicing again, and I should practice my skateboarding more often too, but I hardly have any space in my house to do it. Most floors in my house are marble or wood and if I skated on them they'd get fucked up pretty quick. I have some space outside but since I live in the woods there isn't much space for wheels to be on, at least comfortably or in a stable manner.
Maybe I should start composing original tracks again too. I've been making too many remixes. Mostly Friday Night Funkin remixes for some reason. I'm starting to get back into the game, but not the mods. Just the main game. A teaser came out yesterday, looked neat, we're finally getting another playable character, or multiple. Idk. It's cool though, it means we get some more banger tracks. I feel like people shit on FNF music too much. I can kind of understand disliking the vocals but the instrumentals are fucking fantastic. Amazing composition and use of music theory. I actually don't know if KawaiiSprite uses any music theory at all, and tbh I'd be surprised if he doesn't considering how good his tracks sound. At least a good chunk of them
Oh yeah, the MOTD for today is "Stay Hydrated". It's 1:38am. I should sleep. I was up until 3 yesterday talking to Kobrik about game dev stuff, and I don't want to do that every single night. Well, I do, but I know it's not healthy and I need to keep myself in check.